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"Freedom is just another word for nothing left to lose"-
Kris Kristofferson , Janis Joplin

papa misses summer

I have been unable to see you the last few weeks, because mama refuses to let me see you. I hope you will understand when you grow up how mama fights with papa.
Papa really misses you, and thinks of you a lot. Grow up strong and happy.

papa to summer

I write about the past few weeks that Papa has spent, so at least you will have a record when you grow up of what Papa has been up to.

Ok, Papa has been:-
1. reading all sorts of books;
2. in the jungles of Pahang, (in the words of the Chinese , "looking for gold")
3. learning a couple of languages (some ono-human, as in computing languages)

Miss you.

book of the week

By Francis Fukuyama. Uhm....forgot the title....I think its the posthuman future [thats the title...duh]

What did I learn? uhm...
Ok, by using (or rather abusing) Ritalin, you can increase your concentration (ergo also your intelligence). IQ pills are the future.

Another word of the day

Kaon

Neutral kaons may be (who knows? certainly not the physicists) responsible for the existence of time, or rather, the one way passage of time.

[Generally we grow older but not younger- unless of course one falls in love. Perhaps due to presence of biased kaons?]

Word of the day

Word of the day.

Octanal; a compound which smells like meat to some people and light citrus to others. present in some wines. "whadaya mean you smell lime? I smell meat lehh..." I do not make this up, a husband and wife couple I know (as opposed to husband and husband couple) alway go like this.

He : "I smell/taste meat."

She : "No, there's lemon citrus in them there drink (plus on occasion, inexplicably, the smell/taste of detergent. (Probably free association of lemon scented detergent with the real stuff??? Who knows? Who knows what does on in the minds of a woman? or a man for that matter)

tfc turns into werewolf from food additives

look carefully at the right side of summer's face

books of the week

Book of the week:

Candide by Voltaire.

Reads like Gulliver's travels.....In french, what passes for humour is still funny. I guess....

Goodbye girl

To my girl. I miss you. You may not know it, but it will be a long time before I see you. I keep you in my heart, my little summer.

stop....

This has been a water-shed weekend for me. As usual, I didn't get to see summer this weekend despite a lot of begging. Like the proverbial straw, right now, I don't see any place for me to stand ,as a father. And so with a very heavy heart, I will stop asking for my rights I know her mother has wanted me to give up for a long time but I cannot go on fighting every week.

My dear little girl, your papa is very sorry that he cannot continue to be your papa anymore. I am so sorry you lose what belongs to you and what should be a part of your childhood. YOu must trust me when I tell you that I really tried my best for so many years to give you all that your mother has tried to take away and deny from you.

I am not sure about the legal avenues after this. Frankly the previous legal advice given had been desultory and action taken , almost none. I know it is in your interest to have two parents, but the reality is that I have to let go of you. Maybe in the future , I cab be a part of your life again. I hope you will remember me,I will always keep you in my heart.

I started this blog to record your childhood and to serve as a repository in event that I would not be able to see you anymore. When you are older, I hope you will be able to see that you had a father who loved you so very much.