Papa smsed Mama on Friday evening, no answer at all for 3 hours. So Papa called. Surprise!! Mama picked up...Mama did not allow Papa to see you on Saturday, reluctantly said "Sunday. Today cannot" No reasons given.
On Saturday evening, Papa smsed Mama , as usual no reply. Called later, Mama tried to be difficult. Said she had agreed to ten am when she didn't say anything. (Another outright lie I guess, or maybe Papa wasn't listening. Probably more likely a lie. ) Papa asked her to have courtesy of answering or calling. Mama smsed "don't you dare lecture me, or else you won't see her" Papa smsed back , "Please try to be human" . Mama-ok thats it. You don't get to see her.
Papa has a lot of pain over seeing you made just a tool to hit Papa. Mama is a bully- she drove her ex-fiancee to commit suicide- he ended up in the hospital. Most of the time its girl who try to kill themselves but Mama is very special. Papa also remembers hanging over on the other side of the balcony on the 12th floor when you were very small. It is equally possible at that time you were not born yet, Papa cannot remember. That is the thought process of torture and abuse victims. Many traumatic things have to be buried by the mind and heart.
Papa still doesn't know how to get through to Mama to wake up and be a proper person. Papa promised you last year to take you to dance classes, but one year later, Mama still makes thing so difficult that Papa has no real chance to enrol you in ballet classes. Papa remembers the tears rolling down your face in the trial class as you sat in the corner. You only whispered to Papa, "I have no dancing dress". Your heart was already set , and Papa remembers what you want. Mama should be taking you to dance class , but she is in a another world, where the only thing that matters is the desire to hurt Papa.
[Mama is one crazy woman, Papa is only allowed to see you on her whims and fancies- one day you will know. Or maybe you already do]
On Saturday evening, Papa smsed Mama , as usual no reply. Called later, Mama tried to be difficult. Said she had agreed to ten am when she didn't say anything. (Another outright lie I guess, or maybe Papa wasn't listening. Probably more likely a lie. ) Papa asked her to have courtesy of answering or calling. Mama smsed "don't you dare lecture me, or else you won't see her" Papa smsed back , "Please try to be human" . Mama-ok thats it. You don't get to see her.
Papa has a lot of pain over seeing you made just a tool to hit Papa. Mama is a bully- she drove her ex-fiancee to commit suicide- he ended up in the hospital. Most of the time its girl who try to kill themselves but Mama is very special. Papa also remembers hanging over on the other side of the balcony on the 12th floor when you were very small. It is equally possible at that time you were not born yet, Papa cannot remember. That is the thought process of torture and abuse victims. Many traumatic things have to be buried by the mind and heart.
Papa still doesn't know how to get through to Mama to wake up and be a proper person. Papa promised you last year to take you to dance classes, but one year later, Mama still makes thing so difficult that Papa has no real chance to enrol you in ballet classes. Papa remembers the tears rolling down your face in the trial class as you sat in the corner. You only whispered to Papa, "I have no dancing dress". Your heart was already set , and Papa remembers what you want. Mama should be taking you to dance class , but she is in a another world, where the only thing that matters is the desire to hurt Papa.
Papa misses you and Papa's thoughts and heart are with you, even though you may not know it.
[Mama is one crazy woman, Papa is only allowed to see you on her whims and fancies- one day you will know. Or maybe you already do]
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