nobody's child

Not a good song for a little girl.

Papa woke up this morning feeling really stupid. Papa has blocked out so many things that arise from Mama's behavior, so Papa didn't understand Mama's malice at all. But then again perhaps it was subtle and meditated (and pretty left-field) so Papa couldn't get it.

Papa remembers you singing in a woeful manner the song "Nobody's child". I couldn't see at all why you chose that silly song, Papa only thought you liked it since its easy to sing. Mama couldn't have taught you that song, what mother in the world would teach those lyrics to her own child?

The words are very hard and painful for a 3 year old to hear and learn. You kept singing the lines:

I'm nobody's child, I'm nobody's child
I'm like a flower just growing wild
No mommy's kisses and no daddy's smile
Nobody wants me I'm nobody's child

All the things that Mama does, I know now that just as she taught you this song that she would have told you that you were unwanted. Thats why you when you told me that Mama doesn't kiss you, that was really the truth. Papa couldn't see that Mama would be a monster to you also and Papa blocked what you said out from his thoughts, but it wasn't because Papa didn't want to listen to you. Papa just couldn't see...

Lyrics to that stupid song

I was slowly passing an orphan's home one day
And stopped there for a moment just to watch the children play
Alone a boy was standing and when I asked him why
He turned with eyes that could not see and he began to cry

I'm nobody's child, I'm nobody's child
I'm like a flower just growing wild
No mommy's kisses and no daddy's smile
Nobody wants me I'm nobody's child

People come for children and take them for their own
But they all seem to pass me by and I am left alone
I know they'd like to take me but when they see I'm blind
They always take some other child and I am left behind

No mother's arms to hold me or soothe me when I cry
Sometimes it gets so lonely here I wish that I could die
I'd walk the streets of heaven where all the blind can see
And just like all the other kids there'd be a home for me

[spoken]
I just can't seem to figure out
Why the folks all pass me by
Cause I know that it's true that god takes
Little blind children with him in the sky
And they tell me that I'm oh so pretty
And they seem to like my big curls of gold
But then they take some other little child
And I'm left here all alone

I'm nobody's child, I'm nobody's child
I'm like a flower just growing wild
No mommy's kisses and no daddy's smile
Nobody wants me I'm nobody's child

But Papa's eyes are open now and Papa sees. Papa has to find the best way to protect you. And maybe Mama from her own madness, if possible. Papa has to do both and Papa has to find the way.

You are not nobody's child, you are Papa's one and only.

Papa loves you.